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a passionate repentance

I am lingeringly hurt and resentful of a situation, and people and I…

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I am lingeringly hurt and resentful of a situation, and people and I need to know how I can end this resentment. It's a sin, I know it is. But how do I do this? I can't just tell myself I don't feel what I *do* feel. Even when I know that what I do feel is wrong, and I am ashamed of it.

Also..sometimes Christ Himself doesn't seem very present in my life. I can feel the compassion that comes from other people as an echo of His compassion but I wish that I could feel Him. I don't want to be a saint. I have way too many sins for that. Way too many that I am afraid to give up. But I wish sometimes that I could just..feel something instead of it being a knowing.

I don't feel very spiritual. I don't feel like a very good Christian. And I feel as if I cannot pray until I can resolve this resentment. (Yes, before anybody asks, I've prayed about the resentment.) I believe it will pass. I just want it gone *now*.
  • You are a good Christian, my deeply cherished one... You have upheld me, who am unworthy of your kind words.

    You are going through a silent time... It will pass... It will not last long.

    Do not worry about the resentment, most beloved. Act as though it is gone... In time, it will go.

    *tender robed embrace*
  • Is there any way that you can resolve the situation itself? Talk to the people involved? It might be that they don't realise how it's affecting you. And if it's something that can't be resolved, then perhaps you can take comfort in the fact that you're aware of the way you feel and are trying to deal with it. You're doing what you can, and no-one could expect anything more than that.
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